blackness

the blackness that touches my soul
as black as coal
will always be
my secret plea

my love will never find me whole
the darkened soul
forever gone
my true loves song

crying till my heart bleeds black
out of the crack
falling away
the price i pay

Sorry my love

My one is coming to find me today
It has been a long wait
I think of him as I pray
That he wont be a moment late

I start out m morning and its okay
But I am very impatient to see him
That my words all get jumbled up in what I say
The things I think of could be considered a sin

Then morning turns into afternoon
I am starting to get angry
I really want to see him soon
Everyone today is ignoring me

Late at night he is still not in my sight
I am getting worried and scared
I hold together with all my might
How could I think that he actually cared?

I go to my room and take out my knife
I cut my wrist once as I think
How could I think that he wanted me in his life?
There is a pool of blood on the floor it looks like red ink

I stand up and started writing
The room started spinning
There is no use hiding that I am dieing
I start to hear some angels singing

My letter is done
But so I so my life
The letter is to my one
It is by my red knife

I close my eyes
My soul rising above
My one comes in and cries
Sorry my love

Inside Out

Why do people keep trying to help me out
Just let me slip and die
Just let me go and be free
Let me sit here and cry

I fight with myself on the inside
But the conflict shows on the out
My time with people I must bide
They all want to know what I cry about

I cry because I dont know how to say
The things I feel in this world I cant stand
I need something to help me find my way
No one offers me a helping hand

My story is a crazy train ride
That I know nothing about
No one want to me on my side
No one wants to find my story out.

Hideing the Truth

The blood dripping down
As time ticks away
I dont make a sound
There is noting left to say

People think things are perfect
But it is very different in my life
My world is all a big secret
I dont was to live a lie

I try to tell another
But they just turn away
All their angry words just smother
Whatever I try to say

People dont want to know
The pain other people feel
They just look and say no
They dont want it to be real